Friday, October 4, 2019

Grateful...October 4, 2019

Something interesting, unusual, but oh so beautiful happened to me this morning as I was driving toward the commuter lot on my way into work...

I was overcome with gratefulness and appreciation for what God has done for my children...and for me...

If I'm honest, it started with a thought about one of my children in particular...but as I continued to think on all God has done for that child, my realization, joy and intense appreciation grew as I thought about how He's worked in my other two children's lives, and in my own life, as well...

Thinking about all that He's done and continues to do, I found myself on the verge of way-too-many-tears for someone who was about to board a commuter train very full of strangers. Thankfully, I was only a third of the way to my destination, so I had a little time to compose myself...

What overwhelmed me is the very real fact that He didn't have to do ANY of it...yet He did and continues to do really great things for us - the very thought that He created my children, my husband, and me, with so much love, and purpose...God, it's too much for my small brain to comprehend.

I've spent the greatest majority of my life thinking and feeling absolutely mediocre, not-special, ordinary and unworthy of anyone's time or space and most certainly not worth anyone's attention. Yet the Greatest Being Who Ever Was or Ever Will Be has had His eye on me all along - before I was even formed - and saw fit to bless me with a beautiful, loving, caring, helpful, patient, kind, and hilarious husband who treats me like I'm the most amazing creature that ever lived, and children who are healthy, beautiful, talented and truly awe-inspiring...

I DON'T GET IT...

I was not going to write today. I haven't written in forever, actually, but, about an hour ago I started listening to the song, "Great Things," by Pjay Edmund on repeat and was inspired to share my experience with all of you. I've been off and on listening to that song on repeat for a couple of weeks now. At first, I thought it was just because I absolutely adore the way my son's guitar sounds on that song (which I do - he sounds amazing on all five of the songs he's on in dis joint). This morning, however, it hit me that it's actually much more than that. These lyrics...they perfectly represent my heart towards God...

A lot of the lyrics repeat, so this is condensed:

Great Things by Pjay Edmund

He keeps...doing great things for me

If I had 10,000 hands, I would use them to lift His name

If I had 10,000 tongues, I would praise Him with every one

He keeps...doing great things for me

I don't know why He loves me
I don't know why He cares
And I don't know why He sacrificed His life
Oh but I'm glad, I'm so glad He did

Where would I be if He didn't love me?
Where would I be if He didn't care?
Where would I be if He didn't sacrifice His life?
But I'm glad, so glad He did!

He keeps...doing great things for me

I can't be without You Lord

I need You

More power

More love

More grace

I need You

I mean, seriously, it just couldn't be more perfect!!!

That is all I have to share with you today. Thank you for reading.

Love,

Jessika