Floss Gloss Lean & Colores De Carol Camellia 5/29/18

Today, I have on the most lovely purple polish from a brand called Floss Gloss called Lean. It is such a girly bright purple with quite a bit of pink to it and I just adore it. I bought it in early 2016 along with four other polishes from Live Love Polish, and this is my first time wearing any of the polishes from that order. (Although, I'm not 100 percent sure I've not worn the Picture Polish called Merge...I know for sure my daughter has, but I'm not sure if I have...hmm...). The formula on Lean was phenomenal! You'd expect polish in such a small bottle to be a bit of a pain to apply - but nope! It applied perfectly, evenly, and almost completely opaquely in one coat, though I threw on a second for good measure. I want this baby to last!

On some nails I also have a single thin coat of Colores De Carol's Camellia, which is a beautiful holographic topper with multichrome flakes. It's my favorite thing to put on top of just about anything. As beautiful as Lean is, I couldn't see myself wearing her as a full mani without a little something extra to spice it up. It's not the polish's fault, but my weird skin tone. In general, I'm not a fan of manicures that only feature one creme polish. I do have some exceptions, like, bright colors, dusty colors, and especially off white polishes like Coconut Milk from KL Polish or beautiful nude colors like Gray-T Escape from Sally Hansen Complete Salon Manicure, which are so clean and beautiful on their own that I often can't bring myself to distract from them, particularly on days when a fresh, clean look is preferred. However, Camellia on top of any of those polishes is also pretty darn stunning.

Isn't that a sweet mani? Even with my newly-shortened nails, it looks beautifully girly and just all-around yum.

I hope you enjoyed this short and sweet nail-polish-related post!

Until next time, Stay Blessed!

XOXOXO - Jess

Non-Entertainment & Weight Loss...Apparently...5/24/18

I'm suffering in silence over here at my desk. I can barely keep my eyes open. What I NEED to have happen is to still be this sleepy when I get home. That way I can just clean up and crawl into bed and sleep long and hard until 5:00 a.m. the next day.

I keep starting and then changing my mind about watching something on Prime Video. I'm so disinterested in just about everything right now. I have zero videos left on my YT watch list, too...I ended up deleting a lot of them without watching because I changed my mind about being interested...Why do I keep trying to entertain myself when I just cannot be entertained at the moment?

I had to unsubscribe from a vegan Youtuber today after watching a video featuring cheap (as in, inexpensive) meals. The bowls of the cheap "servings" were like five inches in diameter and two inches deep. Of course those servings are cheap. And who can eat that little and be satisfied? She's also mad fake. I just can't with her anymore.

Boy, am I cranky today or what?!?! Baby needs a nap.

I've been feeling extra fat and heavy and gross lately and have been hating what I've been seeing in the mirror. It's been like this for at least a month if not longer. Yet, my plant-based son hugged me last week and commented on how "slim" I was getting. Later on in the day, I overheard him saying to his non-plant-based brother, "Mom is looking healthier than I've ever seen her look in her life!"

My coworker commented two weeks ago that my weight was really coming down. I quickly responded: "Lies! I'm actually gaining weight." Because that is how I felt.

I started to wonder if maybe my perception and reality were not in alignment. I couldn't find our scale so to prove that I wasn't going crazy, I did something crazy (makes perfect sense!): I pulled out my two pairs of "goal pants." The last several times I pulled them out, I could tell just from putting - excuse me, trying to put - one leg in that it wasn't happening, so I'd just pull my half-calf right back out. Monday, however, something super weird and inexplicable happened: my entire legs slipped into both pairs effortlessly. I had to tug a little bit to bring them to my waist, but I got them up there with nowhere near the effort that it "should" have taken. This is insanely surreal to me.

And yes, several weeks ago I pulled out an olive jacket that I bought in the fall of 2016 that I couldn't wear because it was too small; a jacket that was still too small this past fall and winter, but that, as of this spring, I've been wearing...but still. And yes, there are some shirts I have around the house that used to be somewhat fitting but that I now seem to swim in, but still.

Y'all don't understand: I don't see how this is possible. When I look in the mirror, I don't see progress. I often don't feel it either; meaning, I'm still super self conscious and want to cover up everything all of the time. If it weren't for the clothes, I wouldn't believe it. It still doesn't make sense that they look like that on me, though...I don't see the connection. I'm more likely to believe that the clothes were stretched out than I am to believe that I'm actually getting smaller.

I've been eating what I want, when I want, in the amount I want...and have even strayed from strictly vegan food...yet somehow, my body is still shrinking. How is that?

Is something wrong with me?

Until next time, Stay Blessed.

XOXOXO - Jess

TV Tastes...5/18/18

You may or may not know this about me but I used to be super obsessed with TV court shows. For years, I'd scour YouTube looking for new episodes to watch before they were removed for copyright infringement. When we got a DVR this past fall, I was so excited because I could now record them at home and watch after work. NOT People's Court, NOT Judge Mathis, NEVER Judge Joe Brown for goodness sake - WHY Jesus? - and no other court shows, just Judge Judy and Hot Bench. I added Hot Bench to the recordings just a few months ago because I liked Judge Acker.

I loved everything about these shows. They had kind of a rhythm to them that I found comforting. I can't quite explain it. However, weeks have gone by and I have not had the urge to watch the nearly 30 episodes (of each show) my DVR stored for me. I actually tried binge watching some two weekends ago and found that doing so drained me. It's so weird...I tried watching some again two nights ago and was just turned off. I canceled the recordings and deleted both folders of nearly 60 total episodes without watching them. I really can't believe I did that. You have no idea how seriously obsessed I was with these shows!

I think a combination of a few things has inspired this action:

1. The obvious pre-biases on some cases have gotten on my dang nerves.
2. Some people are starting to become long-winded, reminding me of Judge Joe Brown. Asking stupid questions and drawing out the process of asking stupid questions thinking they're doing something special with their questioning but really are just looking foolish.
3. I've been disagreeing more and more with the outcomes from both shows.
4. I started watching For The People (FTP), The Good Wife (TGW), and now The Good Fight (TGF).

FTP is a new show. I don't jump to watch the show every week; I kind of let them accumulate on Hulu before going back to them. There's one guy on there that I just cannot tolerate because he's so clearly trying to portray something that he so so SO is not. I get acting is all about portraying who you're not, but this guy isn't a good enough actor to pull it off. It makes me resent whoever cast him just as much, if not even more than the guy himself. I may end up not watching the show after a while unless he gets better - or better yet, replaced. We'll see.

TGW was recommended to me when I put a post up asking for recommendations. It wasn't until I was a couple of seasons into it that it hit me: this show, and For The People are uh-duh, court shows. Just different kinds. These are more serious I guess, and going back to the TV courtroom cases just didn't click to me anymore. What's my deal with court shows anyway? I watched all of the episodes of TGW, but, if I'm honest, I barely enjoyed it. It was hard to stay into it. Now, there were some good moments, but to me, it started out dry and ended dry, too. That last episode was the absolute worst way to end that show.

TGF is also hard for me to enjoy. Again, some good stuff, but mostly, I'm bored. I don't know how Maia got such a huge role in this show. The acting ability is so lacking there. Like..overly dramatic or something. It's bad when someone who is supposed to play a small, supporting role, Marissa, oozes so much more personality in the few minutes at a time she gets on screen than pretty much everyone else who gets much more screen time. I actually really liked her on TGW, too. I'd like to see her in more stuff. Oh, and the main investigator, Jay: don't like his acting, but when he and Marissa are together in a scene, it's fun. I like their chemistry and suspect they might start dating. I like Diane, too, but her little hallucinations and fake laughter are not cute to me at the moment. I hope they stop. Lucca...I have mixed feelings about her, but mostly because of the way she speaks. She's British but is not playing a British person, so her exaggerated speech is annoying at times. I like her with Colin, though. He's adorable and they look adorable together.

Why am I torturing myself like this? I feel a bit..."off." Like everything and nothing is entertaining me all at once. It's weird.

Anyway, that is all I have for now.

Until next time, Stay Blessed!

XOXOXO - Jess